Kilay Is Life

Alas onse ng sabado noon, kakasakay ko lang ng jeep nang may sumakay ding isang estudyante. Medyo chubby sya, hanggang baywang ang buhok at pang-rakista ang pormahan; black knitted shirt, tokong na maong at boots. Isa sa pinaka-una kong napansin sa kanya ay yung kilay nya. Usong-uso ngayon ang ‘kilay is life’ at mukhang yun din ang tina-try i.achieve ni Ate Girl to the point na nanglalaban na. Tipong di pa sya galit, mukha nanagad syang galit. Sinubukan kong iwasan na tignan sya kaso may napansin ulit ako. Akala ko may something sa bibig nya pero naka-brace pala sya at medyo hirap i.close yung labi.

Paglampas ng Buting, may sumakay na kakilala nya na kinalabit at kinausap sya. Doon ko nakita yung ngiti nya, ang ganda nya pala. Parang nagliliwanag yung buong mukha nya kapag nakangiti sya, she even have dimples. Confirmed, ‘di bagay yung kilay nya sa kanya. May kamukha syang batang artista ng GMA dati eh kaso di ko na maalala yung pangalan.

Sana next time, she’ll tone down her eyebrows, she’s more beautiful that way.

Naranasan mo na ba?

Naranasan mo na ba na kabisado mo ang sapatos ng mga tao sa paligid mo ng hindi sila tinitignan kasi nag-aalangan kang tignan sila sa mukha?

Naranasan mo na ba na pakiramdam mo palagi kang pinag-uusapan? ‘Yung  para kang takot lagi na baka may nakamasid syo?

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Kandila

Kandila

Gaya ng kandilang sinindihan sa dilim, ikaw ay inilalagay sa isang sitwasyon kung saan ka dapat magsabog ng liwanag. Marami mang pagsubok na susubukang patayin ang apoy mo, may mga kamay namang handang salagin ang hangin sa paligid masiguro lang na patuloy kang mag-aalab.

Kung nasaan ka man ngayon sa buhay mo, isipin mo lagi na one way or another ikaw ay nagsisilbing liwanag para sa iba. Napupuno man ng kadiliman ang paligid mo, ang isip o damdamin mo, ‘wag kang mapagod na hanapin at alalahanin ang dahilan ng kung bakit ka nandyan sa lugar na yan at ang dahilan minsan mong pagliwanag.

Dark Days

I’m in that point again where everything is hopeless and useless. Some said it’s postpartum depression, I think it’s just “regular” depression. I had these moods and thoughts since grade school.

Writing and blogging is one of the ways where I release tension. This is where I write whatever I want to say and it’s been a bad habit that  I usually stay away from my blog ’til I’m in my “happy” mood again.  I’ll change that from now on. Anyways, I’ll still be writing stuff and put it in Private.

Hope this ends soon.

Guilt

The other day you said you can’t sleep because you feel guilty. I thought you’re guilty because you’re hurting me, but I was wrong.

You’re guilty because of what you did to her. I don’t really understand that part but I think what you mean to say was you’re guilty because you involved her in whatever plan you have. My heart got pierced and since then, it’s been hurting like hell.

Well, who cares? At least you’re not bored anymore. And at least, after years of numbness, I can finally feel something again eventhough it’s pain.

Hello 2018!

Hello 2018!

Ang ganda ng simula ng 2018 ko 😀

Nung New Year’s Eve, nagka-usap kami nila kuya thru video call sa messenger and we had this picture na kumpleto kaming tatlo 😀

at least kahit sa video call lang nakumpleto kaming tatlo 😂

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And here are some pictures while waiting for midnight 🙂

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Star Wars : The Last Jedi

Star Wars : The Last Jedi

Few days ago, Globe reached out to my husband and they included us in the advanced screening of the newest Star Wars movie that’s set to premiere in the Philippine cinemas on December 15. Earlier, we watched Star Wars: The Last Jedi and for someone who’s not really a fan, the only word that can describe is “satisfying” (except for one thing).

 

Okay, this is the first (and could be the last) time I attended an advanced screening so I don’t really know what to expect. We arrived at Central Square around half past 2. We asked the lady sitting in front of Cinema 4 and she said we need to wait for the Globe representative who will arrive at 4PM Continue reading “Star Wars : The Last Jedi”

For F,

Dahil G na G ka naman kapag pinag-uusapan ka, pa-isa lang.

Pare-pareho naman kayong ganyan, deny deny sa una tapos totoo naman pala. Kung meron nga, may magagawa ba kami?

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Balance of Dark and Light

Balance of Dark and Light

for the nth time

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November 28, I somehow started is ‘journey’ again wherein I focus more on the path (which I haven’t done for the last five years). I want to reconnect to it because for the past three years, I honest feel like I’m lost somewhere and I can’t find the ‘path’.

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Not So Supportive and Why

Not So Supportive and Why

Alam ko hindi lahat ng tao ay biniyayaan ng supportive na katuwang sa buhay. Actually, bihira na nga makahanap ng supportive na asawa.

Yung tipong bibigyan ka ng reality check pero ipu-push ka pa rin na mag-improve sa mga bagay na gusto mong marating. ‘Yung kahit na nada-down ka na kasi parang walang pinapatunguhan yung mga efforts mo, andyan pa rin sya para sabihin na O.K. lang yan kasi passion mo yan. Sobrang bihira ng yung mga ganyang asawa.

Unfortunately, isa ang asawa ko sa mga HINDI supportive. Kapag may mga gusto akong gawin, he will allow me to do it and when I felt down about it, he will pour all the discouragements. He loves giving reality checks that most often sounds like “you’re doing something hopeless and useless again so you better stop it now”. Just like when I finally had my own domain (which means I’m already spending a bit on my blogging), I asked him to check how my blog looks and if the things that I want to do are possible. His response? “Wala namang magbabasa nyan 😀 “

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